"In all honesty, I want to be loved by another so, so much. I want to have someone who is clingy and possessive and thoughtful and sweet. Someone who can’t go to sleep at night because he knows I am mad at him. Someone who would stalk all my SNS accounts and get mad at me for talking to another who seems to be a bit interested in me. Someone who is eager to hear about my day — what I did, who I was with. Someone who’d get jealous if he sees me go out with a group of boys, even if they are just friends. Someone who can’t stand not to text me but will still try nonetheless, just to convince himself that for a while, he can. Someone who would pursue me and walk after me and give me big hugs and love letters and flowers. Someone who would miss me after a week of not seeing me, or even right after he dropped me home. Someone who would take silly, candid pictures of me and still call me beautiful. Someone who would always choose to stay even if it hurts. I want to know how it feels like to have someone love me the way I love him."
"The first two weeks were the hardest - I was yearning for you like I was gasping for air."
5 summers from now
there will be another guy
who will be wrapping his hands
around my waist.
And he’ll ask me
if I have been in love.
I will smile and look into his eyes
and tell him how I have never felt
this way before.
But I won’t be able to say
that 5 summers ago,
there was someone who
made everyday seem like
mid spring, and how he
made me see blossoming flowers
in mid winter.
And he’ll leave soft kisses on me,
and tell me i’m his world.
And i’ll effortlessly say it back,
but I won’t be able to say that
5 summers ago someone else
was my entire universe.
And my apartment will have
little specks of him all over ,
but I won’t be able to tell him
about the little smudged off specks
of you in my heart.
"You don’t get to choose who loves you back and you don’t control when they start to love you, and when they decide to stop. And sometimes, you don’t even get to pick who you fall in love with either."
the worst is having a dream where someone loves you and you can practically feel them touching you and it feels so real and then you wake up and it’s like the life is being sucked out of you and the happiness just drains out of your body and you feel empty again
"Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first."
"She didn’t lose him, she had to let him go. She didn’t get over him, she had to move on. She didn’t lose feelings for him, she had to walk away. She didn’t get bored of him, she had to do what was best for her. She didn’t let him go, she had to push him away. She didn’t forget about him, she had to cut him off. She didn’t want things to end, she’s just did what’s best for her. She didn’t want to break up, she just wasn’t to handle it anymore. She didn’t want to leave his life, she just needed time to herself. It’s just got to the point where she put herself first for once and she decided it was time for her and him to go their separate ways. It’s not that she doesn’t want to be with him anymore because she does, but it’s just that things weren’t the same anymore and no matter how long she waited for things to get better, no matter how hard she tried to make things work, it just wasn’t happening. She just didn’t want to be unhappy anymore. She’d run back to him in a heartbeat, but for now, she just needs to be on her own"
"The best revenge is not giving a shit."
you deserve to be in a relationship with a person who doesnt make you compete for their affection and never has you guessing where you stand with them